Earlier this week, I went to see my primary care physician. I haven’t had one in years, so there was a lot of paperwork to fill out and much to discuss. I was a bit disgruntled when her final instructions were to “eat more and drink more water.” Why did I go to the doctor?
When the visit was over, the physician printed an overview of the appointment results. The report included items of personal information about me, which she deemed relevant to the case. There, stated quite plainly, were two words that upset me more than I thought they could. According to my physician, I have a “mental problem.” When you sign a release form, all of your doctors have access to all of your records. She approached my psychiatric disorder with slight prejudice, throwing a blanket of stigma over an issue that affects my life so greatly. How many “problems” lie under that blanket? When I realized she had access to files I did not wish to share with her, I felt exposed; my problems were laid bare. The blanket was ripped off, as if it were a Monday morning and I was late for school.
Funny how words can twist and turn based on how they are configured. “Mental problem” is a label even if it is meant to simplify the records, but I find it is cold and insensitive. The truth is, “mental illness,” “psychiatric disorder,” “delusional,” and even “crazy,” touch the same line, but for reasons I do not understand, some of those words are offensive, even when they are not meant to be harmful. Mental illness does sometimes feel like a problem, but it is not unsolvable. Years of experience have taught me that, “How are you doing?” sounds better than, “Have you taken your meds?” or, “Are you okay?” They all convey the same message, but delivery is key. A problem can be solved.
—SJB
***Disclaimer: In my experience, solving a “problem” does not indicate curing an illness, but striving for stability and reaching for sanity. I recommend handling these issues with professional help.
I am not a licensed professional and cannot diagnose. These articles are solely based on my own knowledge and experience, in an attempt to aid the struggling and their families.
The language- “mental problem” almost makes it sound like it is problem that YOU caused. It also minimizes the suffering you have dealt with and work to help yourself and others. I can’t understand why the doctor or records would use such language rather the language of an official diagnosis. You are amazing. So brilliant ❤️
Thank you, Jane. I appreciate that, and your continued support of my journey. This was a bump in the road. A “rolling stone that will not gather moss.”
Thank you, very much! It is great to have you by my side. Love you!